for past few months...al my earnest efforts wr put into a single pursuit...to js feel buoyant.i kno...how long it took me to read btw d lines of a happy n contented life...n figure out d least i cud squeeze out for myself.it has been long,i hv been faking myself dat...ds feeling is such a meagre lump i want for myself...n can certainly hav ds vd a little more patience from my part.
2de my heart is plagued whem m concluding...d lump is beyond a price i can afford.firm after so much of sulking...to relinquish ds desire of mine.
an event....so exacerbating...was it needed for ds realisation to come up???mayb yes.to curb a desire...so strong...d might needed obviously comes from no less dan such awful events.
trying to say...ds is it...n let it go by.tryin to adapt to feeling heavy...radr accept life d way way it is meant for me...instead of fighting to turn it around d way i want it for myself...so dat...dr is no mirror left to get shattered...evry now n den.but certainly heart gets crumbled...at d very thot of the silly things which leave my life devastated.and to my dismay...i m helpless.